Reason now is deaf to you,
you know you cannot hear
The truth is there but  you know why
the truth you cannot bear

I know now, I always have
it’s him you’ve always loved
but I can’t help my longing
that it was me you always hugged

I cannot say I know not how
It says though I was  wrong
By my side it sings to me
is the place where you belong

It’s this thought that haunts me so
it won’t be banished from my mind
Every time I think I’m free
it hits me from behind

I know now the voice was mine
or at least my pride
I cannot run from fate or this
I have no place to hide

I will not run away
In this I’ll be a man
I don’t care what happens now
I have no back up plan

I know now that what I did
was wrong in every way
Why I did this heinous act
I truly cannot say

The bullet wound in his back
is one great mystery
I cannot say I don’t know what
brought it out of me

I stand there shocked by what I did
I didn’t see you come in
looking up I realized what
I had done to him

His death I caused and I regret
I must take my life too
I couldn’t live with the thought of him
I couldn’t live with you

Now I must go away for good
before I back down
I shoot once more and it is done
just after my crime is found

I lay there dead a bleeding mess
and yet you still don’t grieve
both your friends dead by my hand,
just to much to believe

Up or down I cannot say
I know not where to go
I’m lost in both my life and death
and not a thing to show

I’m lost for all eternity
for me there is no ray of hope
I’ve sinned to much to try repent
I’m tied with chains and rope

My fates been set and carved in stone
nothing now will abet
For all my life fill with lust
this is what I get